too many dreams!

once upon a time I was still a kid I liked to dream in many ways, I pretended I was someone else in my dream, someone important someone who enjoyed the life and had a powerful position.
I prefered to be a strong person becouse you don`t have to take any shit from somebody else...as I said I like to dream.
Now I ´m getting older for some reasons my dream become terrorfly, I used to think that dreams will tell persons things, things going to happen sooner or later. Everyone has dream about thier future who they gonna become.
My mom gives me dream by telling me things make me belive and start to dream to have a better life, which is very significance for me. That means alot you cant just come to me and saying stuffs you dont mean it, I allways say to her. sometimes my mom is a monster to crash my dream and throw it away like it never gonna happens to me. She makes me cry so many times so many nights I cannot sleep by thinking what she has done why she never show me the true love like a good mother does.
I start to dream again today after I spoke to her in the phone, she said to me that she needs me in her company, one of her personal is getting pregnat so I should take over her place and start to help her in the family besinuess. I have to learn and lister to her each step otherway its not good. She gives me hope again like many times before, I dont know if I can trust in her words. Or does she really mean that she said to me. I dont know and i guess I will never figure out utills she can show me the papper.
She is my mother I should trust in her and help her in many possible ways I can as a good doughter but she never gives me a chans to prove myself that I can make her pround. She is still my mother the woman who gave me birth to this world.
I am a bird flying into the sky looking for my own family...in a beatiful day I will find a way home.